User blog:BloodSonic1/Things change.... Not always for the better.

Its true. I've lost all motivation for animating and spriting. I'm not the guy I once was.

I still have the same interests, but.... I've just changed.....

I try to return to animating, but when I try to finish one of the several I have, I can't find the motivation. I just don't feel like doing it.

This has been going on for a while. What is going on?

Is it just me getting older? Is there a reason?

I don't even have a reason to come on the computer anymore, really... All I do is check my mail and stuff, maybe talk with someone on MSN, then get off.

Is it that my rigid thinking has found no purpose in the internet, and I am subconsciously phasing it out of my life? Is having a job making everything else less relevant?

I'm less of the random jokester...

I'm probably just maturing..... Of course, I never REALLY liked the blunt dirty jokes I see on some sites.... Now I don't even tolerate them.... An example came earlier today.... I won't describe it, coz I don't feel like it....

I am retreating from my family somewhat more on occassion, in favour of TV, video games, and the simple sanctity of my own room.... All of which is in the same area....

I think I should try and get out of home sometime during these holidays... Sometimes I find myself thinking about my family... And catch the thought "I dislike them because of the DAMN NOISE THEY MAKE!!!"

I just want to talk to someone right now, but I'm not in a mood for jokes... I want a serious discussion.... I don't know why I'm bringing this here.... To a place where almost NO SERIOUSNESS EXISTS..... But still....

At least I found time to write up some lyrics to some music from KH:BBS.... The Enchanted Dominion theme.....

I'll get around to recording it eventually....

After I finish this, I'm going to bed...

I don't know what to do a lot of the time... I just fill my day with whatever I can find...

I find myself even eating out of boredom... No joke... Its not funny.... I could make myself sick doing this...

I just have too much time on my hands, but I don't want to do the things I enjoy... (animating, spriting)

How am I going to fix this?