User blog:JonTheVGNerd/Main reason why I hardly draw

The reason why I hardly draw is because I'm an extreme video game addict and that I barely even bothered to draw, let alone read, but mostly drawing. Long story short, I know. Back then, I was nothing more than a crazy kid (back in the 90's) who is mischievous and somewhat demanding (and sometimes obnoxious, mainly because of my autism). I started video gaming when I first got the Super Nintendo (I was 3) and loved the game until I started playing the PS1, which was released in 1994. IDK if I had even started drawing, but I drew horribly (please don't blame me, I was a child back then, and that happens). I started drawing on Jr. High and one of my friends, Joseph, was an excellent artist. I tried to be like him, but no matter how many times I practices drawing, my skills hardly made improvements, sadly. The only thing I got good at was tracing, but even that still didn't caused improvement.

Surprisingly, I've heard of the words "digital art" for the first time when I first looked at one of my friend's user profile on YT and started drawing using MSPaint. Badly, that is. I barely know how to use it; knowing how to shade, fine-tune edges, etc etc. No matter how much I made improvements, my skill remained the same as usual; null. Nothing's improving me well, even sketch drawing isn't much.

With that said, I have neglected drawing, even reading (though drawing is what I neglected the most), because I have been completely addicted to video games and it's very difficult, if not impossible, for me to get rid of it, seeing as how I've been playing video games for so many years, I barely even find a time to draw and if I would post one of my drawn characters, it'll be a complete joke and I'd end up getting laughed at in a negative manner. Not only that, I'm also caught up with endless amounts of homework, which had prevented me from finding a decent time for me to draw. To make matters worse, my college is NOWHERE as helpful than ever, especially since they have broken my promise that I wanted to take digital art class and instead I was taken into different classes that I didn't even wanted to take. I hope that one day, I would find a digital art class that will improve my skills in drawing Sonic characters (and I cannot draw other things other than the ones on SFW)....