User blog comment:Kagimizu/Broken/@comment-2215825-20121225225949/@comment-1272757-20121226013308

.....This was a mistake. I really do need to go and die.

This blog isn't about right or wrong. This blog was supposed to be my catharsis. It was supposed to be where I put all of my problems and emotions on the table. It was my hope that maybe, maybe I could get some simple words of comfort from friends who give a damn about me. Something to show me that friends still cared, and that even after all that's happened, life would be worth continuing to live through.

And yet I can't even get that for Christmas. It seems I really have become that unlikeable and abhorrent. I hear from strangers on SNN what I need from the people I thought I had built bonds of friendship with.