User blog:BlazingLeopard/More things to add to the list...

Really, I have more reasons?
Yes, I do and today I will say the top reason of why I haven't been writing my fanfics... It isn't something I really want to talk about nor do I have to, but I will anyway because, well, why not?

This is where it gets... interesting...
Over the past few months my sleeping pattern has been absolutly freaking haywire. I haven't had a good weeks sleep since around February... 8 months in other words. This has caused me to become very, very stressed and the addtion of starting Key Stage 4 (Year 10/11) has not helped out in this situation. I mean the other day my maths teacher had a go at me for not paying attention. I complain about being yelled at for not paying attention because of one main factor (no pun intended). This is also the reason I have not slept well in months.

I have depression... and, simply, it sucks...

This has not so much affected my school work, but it has affected the way I treat people and my hobbies. For example, today I was raging at my friends because they weren't (in my opinion) thinking tactically on BF4. Then my mum tells me to calm down, so I yell at her (one of the things I swore I'd never do...).

Also, I don't know if this has anything to do with this but whatever, today I had to perform a piece of music in, wierdly enough, music. Usually I do this with no problems at all. Today was different though. I got a massive stagefright and I was only performing in front of around 11-12 people... hmm...

Hm... I'm out, I guess...
I really don't like talking about these kinds of things, but I thought I'd just let you guys know. If I do say anything mean or rude to you, just tell me and I'll apologise (I have lost count of how many times I've apologised to people this week...)

Goodbye mah friends... (Sorry about depressing you guys as well... :) )