User blog comment:E-113:Xi/It's Time I Take My Leave/@comment-1272757-20120813195157/@comment-1272757-20120813201339

GD, that's a bit different, but I can understand how you'd see it like that.

From my POV, these are the current jobs I have on SFW:
 * Typical admin duties
 * Featured User blog and interview
 * Running the SFW Improvement blog
 * Run damage control and keep things from going nuts

The reason I "put up a wall" when I talk to you guys about certain stuff is because I'm trying to keep you guys from doing something over-eager/over-ambitious that could potentially have serious consequences or backlash on SFW.

When I first joined SFW, I was all gung-ho and ambitious, and threw myself into any arguments or debates where I thought I needed to. I ended up being one half of a problem that created about 70% of the drama on SFW.

After about the fourth or sixth time I was partially responsible for a big bru-ha-ha, I decided it was time to just play it safe and take it slow. I avoided arguments and only spoke when needed to. It's reflected in the policies I suggest too; stern but easy to adjust to and giving people plenty of room to make those needed adjustments, leaving no excuses should they fail to do so, rather than high-maintenance no-s*** policies that suddenly bring down the hammer.

I've been on SFW so long and been part of so much of the drama, that I've learned if you don't take things at a steady pace and just charge right in, it will bite you in the @$$. HARD. So when I "wall" you guys, it's just me trying to prevent drama/fights on SFW, not keep it stagnated or out of any malice towards you guys.

This probably all sounds like excuses right now, and given the situation I can understand why it would seem that way, but this is honestly why I do things so slowly and cautiously, and I apologize for not being more in-depth with all of you in relation to my methods and arguments. I apologize.

HOWEVER, one thing that has always been a huge part of my personality is making sure to talk to someone's face if you have a problem with them. If someone has a problem with me, by all means I want them to come out and say it, to my face.

I had no idea whatsoever that Xi, who I consider a close friend, harbored such frustration and anger towards me, much less had thoughts this disparaging towards SFW. If he had spoken to me and made apparent such thoughts, I would have gladly talked to him about it. Since that isn't the case however, this whole blog is absolutely out of left field for me.