User blog:RandomFlab 2/I need your opinion ..........

Before we go any further i need to tell you guys a conversation at school between me and a chinese friend...

Me: What kind of person do you wanna be when you grow up?

Friend: I don't know yet ..... What about you?

Me: I don't know either

Friend: Well, what do you enjoy?

Me: I enjoy artwork ... and things involving technology, like computer programs and systems

Friend: That all?

Me: Well that stuff, and I like to help people

Friend: What do you mean?

Me: I mean, I am a nice person, i can't be sad at anyone. I can't get angry or hold a grudge at someone either. I enjoy having to see a smile on other peoples faces, knowing that i have done something to help them.

Friend: How do you help people?

Me: I dunno ... the usual stuff. Helping those who ask. Helping people who are sick and can't do things for themselves. And helping my friends and family most of all.

Friend: Give me a second to look at my dictionary, there's a word for someone like you. (pulls out digital dictionary and types in a few letters)

Friend: Here. This word describes you the best.

(The Dictionary read these exact words ....."Saint: sage")

Me: Pffft! As if! I acn't be a saint, I don't have wings.

Me: I mean, I wish i could go up to someone and hug them and say that there problems are gone. I wish i could shake someones hand and tell them that they are free from sicknesses ... but that's my opinion.

Friend: Well to me ..... your a saint

(The bell rings for the end of class)

And there's my problem ..... The last thing my friend said has had my mind constantely thinking ..... I keep doubting myself and it seems like i don't know who I am ... so far, for three nights in a row, I had these dreams of me wearing a white suit, doing good things for people ... but when I wake up ... I wake up with sweat of my forehead and I feel all starnge as if i was up all night.

I would like to keep this blog for my friends on my friends list on my user page. This blog is only for comments about me and what has happened. I will be as honest as I can be, but I will keep all personal things to myself.

So please ... I've been like this for weeks, questioning myself as to who i am ... WHAT i am ... so please again ... tell me who you think i am ..... am i a saint? or am i some happy-go-lucky idiot that can make a difference out there?