Thread:Lucentstar/@comment-34754462-20190520191614/@comment-32766427-20190520193551

Hi Speedy! I'm so sorry. I'm doing just fine, and I really appreciate you asking. I left Discord because – and it wasn't meant to be permanent, and I'll come back, but – first I had intensive classes through the whole summer last year, and by then I felt so bad about having just disappeared that I kept procrastinating coming back (bad reason, I know... I was anxious because I felt like I had let people down so I continued letting people down). The email was the same, I have lots of email (not just from you) piling up and it's so big I just keep trying to ignore it... I guess there never really will be a "good" time, so it might as well be now. I'm going to come on Discord in a few minutes, and I'll keep it open for a while. Hopefully that will break the cycle, and I won't feel so stressed by the concept of popping in every so often after that. And I will go back and read your emails sometime, I promise. But that's a much bigger project and I'm sorry, but I don't think I can do it today.

I'm sorry (and I apologize for saying that over and over, too), because I know this was probably too truthful and you didn't really ask for me to dump the mess that is inside my head all over your page, but I hope you understand at least that this hasn't been about a lack of interest in talking to you, it's been about royally screwing up what passes for my social life because of my own issues. You keep giving me chances to fix what I broke and now I'm going to take this one, because you deserve better than being ignored. I'll see you soon on Discord, if you come.