User blog comment:Kagimizu/Broken/@comment-2215825-20121225225949/@comment-1272757-20121226010002

I'm not looking for all of the Users to love me. I know that's impossible. I'm not looking for someone to give me an Xbox 360. And aside from that last one, which was due to a fight my parents had, all of those comments were from this month, not the last several. And you say "we" have been trying to help? You've been gone for roughly a month! Aside from Vamp and Shima, no-one's bothered trying to talk to me about the issues I've had this month and try to help me! I haven't even been able to talk to Shelly about any of this! I've been dealing with this past month almost completely alone!! What I want isn't pity; I just want my friends to give a damn and show me that somehow this will all get better!!

I just want to know that the friends I had supposedly made over my years of being on this place, in both its highs and its lows, actually give a damn about me. I just want to know that for all my flaws and problems, I have friends that genuinely care! I just want friends who could say or do something- anything to make the tears stop falling and my nose stop sniveling. Again and again and again I've listened to the problems of people I care about and try to help them, or at least offer support. But this whole month I've felt practically alone!! Alone and dealing with this unimaginable amount of crap!!

I'm not looking for a happy ending. I just want this headache to stop. I want to be able to stop crying and sniveling like a child. I want to be able to believe that maybe tomorrow things will finally start turning up. I want to be able to think that maybe the universe will stop treating me like crap. But most of all I want to know that even if none of that does happen... I won't be alone... I'm tired of feeling alone when I have to deal with my problems... It seems like every time I stop bottling up and make it clear that I'm hurting, it doesn't even seem to matter... I just want to know I have genuine friends who care about this stubborn, hot-headed idiot.... At this point that's all I can ask for to make this Christmas even vaguely salvageable....