User blog comment:Kagimizu/Broken/@comment-2215825-20121225225949/@comment-1272757-20121225235754

1) A ban is an admin decision. Guy's ban was a group admin decision, so it should have been decided among said group. I've tried getting along with or at least tolerating him in the past, but I genuinely can't. I tried it for Shelly's sake and in the end it didn't work. I'm fully aware that Guy can be a good person, but so far the negatives of what he's done outweigh any positives.

2) A decision was made with a total of four votes. Four votes doesn't make community consensus. If just Vamp and Ryu had been on at the time, they would have deadlocked it. If just two votes can deadlock a decision that requires 2/3 majority, you have too small a vote count. Talking to my parents about this, they agrees.

3) I didn't pick who was biased or not. Mak kept flip-flopping his vote and was a long-term advocate of Guy's. Shou was as much a part of the vote as Guy or myself, so his vote would have been just as biased. Not gonna touch the bans because I don't remember the circumstances surrounding most of my own right now. It wasn't dozens, but probably close to a dozen, and I genuinely feel it was biased because yes, they didn't give a legitimate explanation as to whether or not the circumstances in the blog proved incompetency. That's my only problem. There's a difference between personal opinion and an unbiased vote; had I been demoted by a community decision based on unbiased and relevant votes, I would have been able to deal with it.

4) That's exactly what I wanted to do, but people were already questioning my competency, so I had to try and be more active to prove them wrong. Adding inactivity doesn't help peoples' views of your competency. Had I kept my adminship I was going to make a blog saying that I wouldn't be as active until the 21st. But like the rest of the month, that was shot to hell.

5) White, prior to my demotion at least five to seven people showed up a day. Now? Now I'm lucky to see three other people on the Xat. Tell me that isn't the least bit strange, not to mention upsetting when you're in such a hurting state.

I'm not consumed by any amount of hatred White, and I don't see anyone as obstacles. What you see here is a list. A list of all the crap that's happened to me in the last month. A list of what's made December without a doubt the worst month of this year for me, if not my entire freaking life. I wanted people to help me! I only bottled up in the past because I didn't think my problems were worth sharing! And this entire month I've been making it clear that I'm hurting or upset, and hardly anyone's bothered to try and help me! Only Vamp and Shima put any actual effort into trying to comfort me prior to this! I don't see any of my friends as problems to be solved. I don't see anyone as such a thing; I always see people as people.