User blog comment:Sonicfan919/Big, Big, Big, Big, Big (Big) Roleplay Pre-Alpha/@comment-1942179-20150330221428/@comment-1587581-20150331225529

I actually read this before I hit the sack. It was a surprisingly good bedtime essay! :D Now to decide who'll narrate it.

Jokes aside I appreciate you taking the time to write this. I can only imagine how long it took.

I usually easily write off the mistakes I made in SCCT by saying "oh, I was young" but the mistakes in DU really hit me since that wasn't too long ago and it's likely that I still can make the same mistakes. I understand that a lot of my characters can be annoying and I'm sorry about that. That was one of the reasons I ditched Krinkinko and everyone changed as a result of his departure (though you or anyone wouldn't know since I can't really roleplay and because you're one of my remaining friends here). That said, some of them kind of had a reason. I'm sorry that Candi got on your nerves so bad, it was probably a lot more than I intended. She was supposed to start off annoying and kind of too idealistic then maturing gradually as the story went on. Again, sorry though.

And sorry about Rachel, I guess I just wanted her to have a heroic part for once and that was the only way I saw it working out. I completely get your points.

I guess I'm really just not that good at going with the flow. I kind of get afraid of the roleplay steering off course, not getting to do what I want and the end-goal not being met as a result. You're right that I should discuss these issues more, then compromises could be made. It's fear more than anything and that's probably why I fought back so much. Even if it does die, at least others would have been able to have fun I suppose.

The above paragraph also applies to me too, oddly enough. Namely, as you noticed, Krinkinko's snapping (which I do appreciate that I at least successfully set up the darker tone well with that scene) and the big fight scene despite Smash's argument. Even if I wasn't quite sure how I those things were going to happen I knew that I wanted them to occur regardless so that's why you have head scratching moments like those. I should have took more time to think of a better way to handle that, ask before hand or maybe, I don't know, change it somehow. Even if I was sore about it, it would have made more sense to do without the fight. Even the ending of the fight was me having my way since I didn't want them to be with Smash so early so I made Frederick go completely batcrap crazy about it.

And sorry about the gore, death and stuff, I thought that was one of the main reasons you dropped it. Admittedly I haven't gone back to check how bad it was but considering what Krinkinko did to Splice that one time, I have a feeling I'm not as carefree about it now as I was then. I'm probably just very dissentisized compared to you. There's probably something seriously wacko with me :P

In short, thank you for that critique, it opened my eyes a lot when I thought they were already open.