User blog comment:Kagimizu/Broken/@comment-2215825-20121225225949/@comment-1272757-20121226001101

What are you talking about? I can accept when something's my fault. I'm not obsessed with holding on to my adminship, especially because I can get it back. My problem isn't with losing it, it's how I lost it that makes me so frustrated. I'm not trying to deflect any blame, I'm giving legitimate reasons for why I did what I did. Heck, maybe how I dealt with Shou wasn't the best; I will admit that much. And in the past I've admitted to being part of the problem during the fights with Guy.

The only reason I made the list is because from my POV, you misunderstood my motivations, actions, and/or feelings, and I wanted to explain. I want help White. I want people to show they give a damn. I want to know that I have friends who care about me. I want something that will make this month worth going through. I want something that will show me it will get better and that there's more worth living for.